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Confidently Lost

November 17, 2018

Confidently
Lost

At 28 years old, I’ve discovered that you must demand what you want in life. Happiness is not just a state of emotion but an action you must take as it doesn’t just simply arrive without a conscious effort on your behalf.  The truth about happiness is that we are responsible for creating it.  

Reflecting back on the past decade of my life, I can pinpoint the areas where I settled for lackluster. I am undoubtedly no stranger to sorrow and I’ve probably stared misery in the face more times than I’d like to admit. And so, as a woman nearing 3 decades on this earth, I recognize that I’ve always had an abundance of perseverance, but through those daunting years, I lacked passion and purpose — two impactful components that are essential to happiness.

For many of us, happiness takes time. I’ve come to realize that it is not embedded into us like the air that we breathe. It is a period of trial and error and often takes a series of little pursuits to discover the passions that ignite the feeling of true purpose within us.  And with that, we can’t forget that happiness would not exist without sadness. Concealing one emotion renders the other meaningless. I know this because I’ve experienced melancholy enough times in my life to truly appreciate the tiny blissful moments I encounter every so often. Those moments are amplified doses of happiness and I hold on to them because I realize that they are such rare encounters for some.

And so I’ve come to learn that the most authentic and long lasting happiness is sparked when I’m practicing the two pursuits I love most: writing and photography.

Honestly speaking, I rely on these passions of mine to save me from time to time. They are my staircase to self expression and without them I lack an outlet to share my point of view. They contribute heavily to my happiness, fuel my creative soul,  and are the few things that remain constant in my ever-spiraling world. They often leave me feeling agitated, discontent, restless, yet always motivated to improve and be better. And that rewarding feeling of being constantly challenged to create something from nothing? Invaluable.

 I recently stumbled upon a quote to which I was surprised, came from an episode of Seinfeld. Now, while I’m more of a Sex and The City kinda gal, I still felt compelled to share a snippet of the episode that resonated with me…

“I don’t want hope. Hope is killing me. My dream is to become hopeless. ’Cause when you’re hopeless, you don’t care. And when you don’t care, that indifference makes you attractive. “

The famous philanthropist, Andrew Carnegie once said, if you want to be happy, set a goal that commands your thoughts, liberates your energy, and inspires your hopes. I don’t claim to be a writer but there’s a burning desire within me to communicate my passions through the art of words. I don’t claim to be a photographer but I’m fascinated by the art of observation because it illustrates point of view. And by no means, whatsoever do I claim to be a model, but if I’m an advocate for anything, its for documenting those moments that you feel most in love with yourself.

 Someone once told me that self belief is a powerful weapon and that hard work manifests success with time. I feel confident in my talents and am so happy that I powered through infinite creative blocks and late nights obsessively teaching myself new techniques to improve my creative skills. And the outcome of it all? A true sense of accomplishment and the invigorating feeling of having something meaningful to contribute to this saturated blogger space.

 

So here I am, a hopeless creative, blossoming most recklessly and confidently lost. I’m finally launching a new venture in my life while attempting to strike the right balance between ambitious and authentic. I lack formal training but I still pour heart and soul onto the pages of this space in hopes to connect with others that share the same passions as I do. I haven’t yet abandoned the insecurity of putting myself out there to be judged, but I possess enough belief in myself to carry on until the universe decides it wants to believe in me too.

What I hope to achieve from this endeavour goes well beyond social media likes and the number of “followers” beside my username. Vanity metrics do not define me or entice me. I find more solace in building a loyal readership through the creative energy that I put out into the world. I’m driven to find peace with exactly who I am on this journey in hopes that, perhaps, it’ll steer me towards taking pride in my talents, my appearance and my flaws along the way. 

My biggest ambition is to create content that leaves a lasting impression. I want it to resonate with my readers almost like the smell of a sweater someone special left behind. A human connection is undoubtedly what I crave most. I see value in creating a sense of community on this platform rather than incessantly worrying about the popularity of my posts. In fact, the only validation I need for my creativity, is my very own. And I suppose if someone, somehow, somewhere is inspired by my work? Well, that’s just the cherry on top of it all.

So as I pave my way out of digital bricks between a triple w and a .com, I look forward to looking back at this site one day and being able to reflect on my growth as a content creator. Similar to flipping through an old family photo album, I hope to evoke feelings of nostalgia with every scroll through the pages of this digital space that I’ve built out of pure passion.

And as I embark on this new journey that is The Annie Pursuit, I hope to replace my feelings of self doubt with the certainty of knowing that I’m on the right path. But for now, patience is a virtue and this platform that allows me to dedicate my existence to creating is what I will prioritize for as long as this website exists.

So, cheers to those that are devoted to this industry for the right reasons. Cheers to those that express point of views beyond the materialistic mentality. And lastly, cheers to those that hustle relentlessly to inspire, uplift and propel others towards creative expression.

After all, that’s how I came to arrive at this very point in my life . . .

28 Comments

  1. January 3, 2019 / 6:12 pm

    I love how deep you went with this post. That Andrew Carnegie quote really stuck with me – gonna have to write that one down! Thank you for being so open!

    xx Maria
    https://www.miamiamine.com/

    • January 3, 2019 / 7:16 pm

      Thank you for taking the time to share your thoughts, Maria! I’m so glad to hear you enjoyed this post. <3 Xo, Annie

    • January 3, 2019 / 7:40 pm

      Thank you for stopping by Melody! Welcome to the blog <3 Xo, Annie

  2. Lisa Autumn
    January 3, 2019 / 6:12 pm

    Babe you are absolutely flawless!

    x Lisa | lisaautumn.com

    • January 3, 2019 / 7:51 pm

      So sweet, Lisa! Thanks so much again for stopping by the blog <3 Xo, Annie

  3. December 20, 2018 / 5:44 pm

    I love your blog. These photos are so stinking cute. Here’s to being lost! One of my favorite quotes is, “Not all those who wander are lost.”

    x,
    S | Je M’appelle Chanel

  4. December 18, 2018 / 2:27 pm

    Your post is so beautiful, thanks for sharing it. I think that sometimes being lost is just a piece of the big puzzle of life. Also, I love your photos. The dress really suits you.

    xo, Andreea
    https://www.budistyle.com/en/

  5. December 14, 2018 / 9:53 am

    You look absolutely beautiful! I love that dress on you. I agree too, happiness is something you need to create and it’s a way of looking at things differently, through positive glasses instead!

    Raindrops of Sapphire

    • January 3, 2019 / 6:53 pm

      So glad to hear you enjoyed, Lorna! Thank you for taking the time to leave your thoughtful/sweet feedback <3 Xo, Annie

  6. tingmystyle
    December 13, 2018 / 9:40 pm

    So happy that you embark on this new journey and keep on shining and inspiring us Annie. Love your beautiful photos and writings. That dress looks so stunning on you.

    Xx
    Ting
    https://www.tingmystyle.com

    • December 22, 2018 / 2:59 pm

      Thank you for taking the time to leave such sweet feedback, Ting! Welcome to the blog <3 Xo, Annie

  7. Angela
    December 13, 2018 / 9:55 am

    What a wonderful post Annie – you’re right, people are happier and more fulfilled when they’re doing what they love and passionate about, like photography and writing. The world is served by people pursuing their purpose!

    Angela | http://www.lenorth.com

  8. December 12, 2018 / 9:13 am

    Love this post Annie, I love the quote though I donot completely agree but somehow it is true. Now if you think deep to it. When you do not care you become careless and thinking deep nothing will make you happy. But what the quote means is sometimes let go is the first cure to be happy. so be careless :).

    I say to that live your life the way you want it to be not what other dictate it to be if that makes any sense.

    I enjoyed reading your post today

    http://www.chez-rama.com

  9. December 11, 2018 / 1:45 pm

    I love this post, thank you for sharing babe. It is so true what you said, value doesn’t come from how many ‘followers’ you have or how many ‘likes’ you get on a post. It’s about the creative journey, what you learn from your ups and downs and most importantly about enjoying the process.

    ..also, the photos are amazing and I absolutely LOVE your outfit. Ahh so chic!

    xGabi | https://gabiwahl.com

  10. WhatWouldVWear
    December 10, 2018 / 10:17 am

    LOVE this post! I am sure you will have lasting impression!! Gorgeous, inside and out!

    Happy Monday, babe!

    xoxo, Vanessa
    http://www.WhatWouldVWear.com

  11. Lisa Autumn
    December 7, 2018 / 4:38 pm

    Girl this is such a beautiful dress!

    x Lisa | lisaautumn.com

  12. November 21, 2018 / 12:57 pm

    This is such a great read dear. Indeed, happiness indeed is pursuing your passion. Living your own life, on your own unique way. Anyway, your photos are amazing as always dear. And that dress looks lovely on you. Love the ruffled sleeves, so perfect for the season.
    Jessica | notjessfashion.com

  13. anastacia
    October 19, 2018 / 8:53 am

    what an amazing post!! Absolutely love it. 🙂

    • October 22, 2018 / 2:59 pm

      Glad you enjoyed! Thank you Anastacia! <3

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